Sounkcheck : Livin' On A Prayer by Bon Jovi

Sheesh..i am so glad that I just left with one last paper..cos I am so not interested in doing my exams. Gosh..i don't know what's wrong with me..but I just don't seem to care anymore..I just want to make it tru. If I got D for DAD,FCS & EM3A modules..i will be happy enough. It all cocked up early in the semester..the lab tests, the quizzes and CT. This semester is not a good one. So I just hope to get tru...and put it behind me. "Oo...well, it seems like such fun until u lose what u've won."

Well..it seems my holiday won't b going the way i plan. My sunshine won't be shining with me in thailand. Her exam schedule just clashes again. It will be so beautiful if I get to spent it with her..so beautiful. I can picture it in my mind, my dream, my fantasies. Sigh..."It's all about u..It's all about u baby.*

Another earthquake have taken it's toll of lives again. My prayers for the souls which are lost. They surely have their plans, their dreams, their problems which suddenly doesn't seem to matter anymore. Maybe they were looking forward for tommorrow which never came. Maybe they were going to see someone who they never get to see. I tried putting myself in their place and it's so sad..so sad. Rest in peace. "And I felt a chill through my body...That I'll never forget..Till the day we meet again...Face to face with a grin...In hell or heaven."

*AciTz KiNgKi0w* turned back time on 1:46 AM

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Soundcheck : Redemption Song by Bob Marley

I can't study like this.........pls almighty god, y am i so depressed at this kinda time. I need to make tru this. pls..give me strength. My dreaded FCS paper and i am feeling like trash and I can't concentrate...just do anyhow i can. Hoping for a miracle, again. "Imancipate yourself from mental slavery...none but ourselves can free our mind"

Peace out

*AciTz KiNgKi0w* turned back time on 12:36 AM

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Soundcheck : Setia by Jikustik

Dudeeeee..i can smell it. Yes..i can smell it. Things are abt to get rowdy soon. School's out. Holiday's in. Cheers !

I have been different, patient, loving, persistent, caring, worrying, paranoid, misunderstood, difficult, lonely, emotional, sensitive, truthful, hurt, sad, angry, confused, lost, denying, thinking, guessing, wanting, waiting...Things are abt to change. I should start thinking abt myself..I don't want these feelings to ruin my holiday. I thought something good will come out of it..but..nothing..Let's just fuck it then. "Never take this sincere soul for granted...the soul lives on..but the sincerity might die"

*AciTz KiNgKi0w* turned back time on 3:44 AM

Soundcheck : Look What You've Done by Jet

My day was basically ok...met up with Ahmad, Fazli, Hajar & Farah at parkway parade. Talked abt Ahmad's & Hajar's trip to Bintan. The beaches looks nice,Sounds relaxing...I loves to go, but i don't know why...I still prefer Thailand..lol..mayb I prefer the rugged environment to the exquisite resorts & all. Well, I can anytime just hop to Samui if i need that treatment. But if we go together...I'll go. Ahmad bought me a vespa, too small for me...but Hilman's Spiderman will love it..lol..it's nice..thanks lad. And they got izah a sea shell necklace..but i think it looks good on me..tho not much guys wear that..but u need an original like me to start things like these...we dare, they follow. wankers O wankers.....u're all the same, lame. "You may be a lover but you ain't no dancer"

I shuldn't have ask. I feel like calling her up, wondering if she got back safe, hope to get to share the joy of her day...but why shuld i when she doesn't. Next time please don't bother asking. Thank you..I am feeling Faboulous you know. "Never coming down now...never coming down..no more, no more, no more, no more."

*AciTz KiNgKi0w* turned back time on 2:30 AM

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{Saturday, March 26, 2005 . }

Soundcheck : Butterfly by Crazy Town

Bunny loves carrot. Bunny is horny. Tiger loves horny bunny. Bunny loves to hop. Tiger loves to pounce. Tiger likes to bite Bunny. Bunny & Tiger loves to hop & pounce in the wild. Grrrrrrrowlll...lol.

*AciTz KiNgKi0w* turned back time on 12:50 AM

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{Thursday, March 24, 2005 . }

Soundcheck : Terlerai Janji by Exists

Even though she is still here, even though we talk, even though she call & msg me..I still miss her . Where is she...the girl I fell in love with? When did she go ? Frustrated, confused, lost to where has she gone. She was my everything. Now, she's merely a part of my life. I still try to believe that she is still here. But you are no longer her. Slowly, forcefully & painfully...I am moving on in silence. Trying to pour my heart out to her is no longer appreciated. I just want to try and love her again. Trying to adapt slowly. I tried..But she's too fast for me, I fell chasing her, injured & hurt, I waited for her ever soft warm hand to help me up but she nvr came back, I was to0 dependent on her..I guess I trust her too much to give all my heart to her..yet I nvr trusted her to break it. I am still down..pls come back and help me up dear, I fell hard and I shattered..I can't carry on..I m begging her to help me, but she's now too far to hear my cries, to see my pain. I never meant to hurt anyone. Yet I am to be blamed. In my innocence I plead guilty. Guilty that I can't do it without her .

with love,
....................................... .... ... ............ .............. ... . . . .. .... . i wish the dots will nvr stop, pls.

*Sukarnya untuk aku melupakan....Terasa kini bagai kegelapan.............................Mungkinkah aku yang disalahkan*

God Bless.

*AciTz KiNgKi0w* turned back time on 2:48 AM

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{Wednesday, March 23, 2005 . }

Soundcheck : Pop That Booty by Marques Houston

Hah!
If you ask me if i am a booby or booty...I say BOOTy..lalala..girls with firm & fine behind makes me feel hot. What more if you can pop ur fine booty well...ahah...u r in a good time with me sugar. *grin*..lol. "I like it when she calls me dada" I am very proud of my sunshine...and myself..hehe..cos she now can finally ride a bicycle..after i taught her that is..lol..I know it's no big fuck to u guys...but..it makes me happy seeing that she finally believes she can do it...she looks cute doing it...lol...Ahmad & Hajar should also be receiving the credits for participating in this..lol..Fazli & Farah missed out mann..it's rare to find a 18 yrs old girl who don't know how to ride a bicycle..lol..that was before tho..now she's cool..lol..aigght..Got an overseas call just now...I thought it was my dad..but what a surprise when it's Ahmad..lol..he's at bintan with his 'starfish'..lol..cam B, can i call u my starhub? lol...well, they sound happy..must be nice..can't wait for my vacation..i wish it turned out the way i dream of..haizz..how i wish i could have her with me there..i will mean the world to me..i just wanna share my joy with her..well..I gotta carry on with my blardy maths. Wish me luck aight comprades. "I want to ride my Bicycle...i want to ride my bike."

*AciTz KiNgKi0w* turned back time on 5:16 AM

Wat's up yaLL ?

Soundcheck : For An Angel By Paul Van Dyke

Who is the 'genius' who invented maths ? I'll Kill u ! lol... ok, I don't mean the basic 1+1 = 2 junkie...those are needed to count the days left in your life, or how many bitches have u slept with . Well, what really sent my brain juice dry is the major pain in the arse..and i mean those Laplace Transforms , Fourier Series & the rest of those trash. Dude...who really need these stuff in their life? unless u are planning on creating the next nuclear bomb or mayb the spaceship or whatever u going to use that calculation for ...sheesh. I don't mind learning programming and stuffs like that as u might use them in Life...but those kinda maths...i just wanna make it tru...darn...i HATE doing this...My ambition is not to be a Mr Tan, Sir Ali or Dr Bala. "Maybe I don't really wanna know...How your garden grows. Cos I just wanna fly"

Went to HRC on monday...my first after so long..say my previous dated up to 1-2 yrs ago..dude...I felt weird just at the thought I am there...seriously..well, just have fun laughing at some stuffs dwn there..lol..trendy wankers was everywhere..this particular guy was dancing, more like jerking like I nvr seen before..possessed kinda stuff..mann..I wonder what drug he was on..lol..btw, it was unexpected anyway..so most to most..see u in HRC next 2 yrs. "I can see a liar, sitting by the fire"

Have u ever have dreams that are so real that u could feel the touch, cry the tears, laugh it out, feel the pain, shiver in fear and when the grand finale is near..u find urself waken up in cold sweat ? I had plenty and it keep on happening to me. Everytime i experience a flashback...I swear I have done that before, been there before..exactly the same..but that was in my dream and now it's happening to me. I felt that my dreams are showing me the happenings in the future. However I can merely remember the dream until it happened..then it will be such a familiar experience as that of my dream. And I am so scared & uncertained of certain dreams I had. Well, some beautiful ones...pls do make it happen, God. "I guess I have paid for the show..why don't I just watch it til the end." ................... "Selamat tidur kekasih gelap ku..."

*AciTz KiNgKi0w* turned back time on 4:28 AM

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{Wednesday, March 16, 2005 . }

Hola...
the semester is almost over and tho exams are near..somehow i feel this calmness..I feel closer & closer to returning to a paradies. Just wanna get over it..Most probably, I will start revising soon. So I will be going M.I.A aight lads..well, I will be looking forward to a rewarding holiday..it's worth my sacrifice.. "Just one thing makes me forget...Red Red Wine..Stay close to me..Don't let me be in love..it's tearing apart my blue blue heart. "

" Vatos Loko's !"
Ayan is crazy.But no matter how weird he gets..I still enjoy his warm greeting whenever i cross his path at town, zouk or any happenings..he'll be there...and lol..he's just wacky. Been awhile i pay Sin Ming Ave a visit..wondering how's mummy & daddy are doing. While...Jengz is doing what he does best...his disappearing and sudden appearance act..mann..the last time i saw him was..hrmm..way backk..he wasn't even there at zouk out...then out of nowhere...Poof*...he gave me a call. He's now a commited person to his gf, she's a nice girl..that's a change. Dax & Salleh Tuer going to serve NS..so they will be going M.I.A. Then, there was Mas Indra..He and his nvr ending issues with his ex-gf, her sister..and the list goes on..just chill lad..just don't bother anymore..Shika that night was different..I thought she's a jap until she opened her mouth that is. She's so fair and wow..got me confused. Izin now is back to his blonde afro..lol..he sure look like Ben frm City Of God..oi Puta~!..lol..Fyfy as usual..seemed so happy to see me..she's a great companion. The usual people yet neverless special people in my life are always there..you guys know who you are..Guess who is in my "I want to meet next..I miss" list? Dino!! . Wonder how's his Dj carreer is doing..heard he's now spinning in Liberte' & Lempika..I think I will give him a surprise soon.Well, I was touched by the response I got the two night..nvr knew I was so missed..lol..and my sunshine too..we 'r ONE. "I can see the pain in your eyes...Cos Everybody's changing and I don't know why, Everybody's changing and I don't feel the same."

Went window shopping with my girl that day and we saw lots of nice stuffs we would like to get our hands on...Shhhh...Don't tell people our secrets. Til the cash drop from the sky....cheers.

*She's asleep and I am awake, the owl meets sleeping beauty*

*AciTz KiNgKi0w* turned back time on 2:10 AM

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{Thursday, March 10, 2005 . }

***Sick***

Sitting alone in my dimmed blue room...
Cornered & stoned...
I've seen it...I see it coming,
It's from the clothes we wear,
The footware be bear,
Our tasteless bracelets and the dye in our hair,
Maybe the sex, alchohol or the drugs we do,
We just don't wanna be like you,
Maybe our looseness,
Maybe it's our sweetness,
You know we are originals,
Everyone from the one almighty god above,
To the damned hounds of hell below,
You can try to be like us,
You can dress up like us,
But you cannot never take our place,
Take your time but I shall warn you,
I am a armed for the kill,
You are just a replica of my imagination.............
And I am sick of you,
It's Sick..Sick..Sick....like a pig with an apple
And that's just the way it is........

But why the problem..when,
That's not a problem,
That's not my problem,
That's not your problem.

I am coming to get you,
I am so sick i could kill you,
It's Sick...Sick...Sick....Like a Bush in a chapel
And that's just the way it is......

** I Know You Want The Sin Without The Sinner **

*AciTz KiNgKi0w* turned back time on 9:39 PM

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{Wednesday, March 09, 2005 . }

GO BARCELONA.........!! BARCELONA!! BARCELONA!!

Cheers lads.

*AciTz KiNgKi0w* turned back time on 3:44 AM

Hey lads...was bored and was checking out SFOGs...u know, the pictures, articles and stories...just wanna spook myself to sleep..but it ain't working. Thou, after going tru the pictures...i found it kinda funny how they have this preception that those orbs are something spiritual..like mann, just a small white orb, u will like own a scary picture...lol...that's lame. Well, if that's it..check out theses pictures...somewhere near harbour front.. 1+ am. Just another night out for a drink.





*Orb party dude~!!! Yipeykahyeh~!!*




*No worries ! The Ghostbusters are here!*



* Boys & Girls....Don't try this at home *



*You can run..but you can't hide*



*The best in the business*



*After a hard day at work...cheers.*

Now, do I get my award ?

*AciTz KiNgKi0w* turned back time on 1:48 AM

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{Monday, March 07, 2005 . }

I am having my DAD lab now and I feel like being over at Phangan, say 6.45pm,watching the sunset,on a bar on top a hill,listening to melodies of raggae grooving the mood,having a chilled beer, sharing life experiences with people from all over the world, waiting for my sumptious dinner to be served, smoking my magical joint..everything seems so beautiful..so perfect...

Every day, hour, minute, second passed seems to bring me closer to it. I dear so much for it. I missed it so much. I love it so much. Nothing here can be compared with it. The beauty it possesses just hynoptize me. The pureness it possess. I miss it. *Freedom & Peace*



*So why don't we go...Somewhere only we know....*

*AciTz KiNgKi0w* turned back time on 3:07 PM

*Things I hate about you*

~I hate it when you make me feel good with empty promises.
~I hate it the way you sound so cold on the phone.
~I hate it when you ask me to wait just to read & respond to your messages. ~I hate it when you go to someone else for comfort when I am always here for you.
~I hate it when you break my heart.
~I hate it how close you make me with your family.
~I hate it when you said you'll be back early, cause you will never be.
~I hate the hope & faith you've given me cause it's so empty.
~I hate it when you lie, cause I can see right through your voice, your eyes..
~I hate it when you compare me with someone else.
~I hate it how much you make me miss you.
~I hate it when you gave some other guys more attention than me.
~I hate it when u look so enthusiatic meeting some other guys than me.
~I hate it when i make you cry.
~I hate it when you always cry instead of talking things out with me.
~I hate when I hurt you cause I never meant too.
~I hate your smoking habits...I don't want you to die.
~I hate it when you always make me look like the guilty one.
~I hate it when you switched off your phone and claimed you've gone to sleep.
~I hate it when you told me you'll call but I'll just wait til dawn but there's no calls.
~I hate it when you make me feel so unappreciated & lonely.
~I hate it how much I love you.
~I hate it that I can never hate you.

I am still waiting for her....where are her promises to me?
When are things going to change?
Is she still outside?
What is she doing now?
What time is she going to call me like she promised to?
Why did she off her hp right after my call?
What's her the reason going to be now?
Is this how she intend on making things better?
Does she think a 'I'm sorry' will let her off just so that she can repeat things again?
What wrong have I done to her to deserve this?
Does she knows how I feel?
Does she know why I never cheated on her?
Does she know why I spent my every cent on her?
Does she want a barrel of my tears to prove my love?
Don't my sacrifices mean a thing to her?
Does she knows that she mean a world to me?
Does she really love me?


Pls God...I know you have answers to my questions...answer me.

*AciTz KiNgKi0w* turned back time on 3:17 AM

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{Tuesday, March 01, 2005 . }

Hey lads...how's it going?


I feel like being a sea turtle all of a sudden..lol..*Imagine myself being a Sea Turle*...With a heavy burden to carry,(The shell) i seem to be swimming gracefully with no sense of direction in the wide open ocean. However, when the time arises to lay eggs, I'll always know the right direction to go (I don't lay eggs tho). I don't know y I kept returning to dry land knowing how much I have to struggle, how vunerable i am at the moment, being helpless..but i followed my heart..there's an urge. Tears of a turtle seemed so ever painful but it just weeps in silence with no remorse, no regrets. Most of my hardwork(Laying the eggs) seems to have a large fraction gone to waste. Thou the small fraction of it seems to give a new hope, a new beginning...it's worth it. While enjoying a moment to embrace love and hope, i have to watch out for stray fish nets & hungry Great Whites. Thou I have a expensive taste for the best fish..I will settle for sea weed. But i still prefer pizza....nyucknyucknyuck...cowabangga~!

*Tenage mutant Ninja turtle*
*Facts & Background courtesy of Animal Planet*

I Need to go on a holiday...wish could follow Ahmad & Hajar to Bintan...lol...anybody wanna go to Thailand on the end of April or Early May? Get back to me aight..I'll take u to a place that will sent all your worries away. I missed it so much already. Can't wait to be a turtle again...hahahaha...now i am sleepy...hahahaha. Ciao .

*AciTz KiNgKi0w* turned back time on 2:03 AM

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