Oui OuI OuI ~!

ScHooL starTs TommOrrOw~!! FucKing Shit~! I was expecting another week of holiday...bloody bastards..waTz the HurrY fuckErz..Can't u see I need my holiday~!!! ARGHhhhh..I just got back from Thailand..and I haven't even spend my time with my sunshine..she's on her way back from K.L..safe journey baby..I am still tired from my trip..i am not prepared at all to start school..and yeah..since I fucking failed my 2 subjects last semester...my time-table is going to b one fucking tight one..ending at 5pm for 4days..and the earliest is at 4pm..and yeah..i am taking two maths module..crapp~! I think i should change time-table and takes things slow here..or i will drive myself crazy..7 or issit 8 modules ??? HeLL..I will have no life..and yeah..I need somebody right now..i am so down with this..for a moment I was having a great time in Thailand..and when i get back here..things suddenly sucks..I can't even get to see my baby till mayb next week...fuck..ARhhhh...fcuking hang loose..mayb I need a smoke..think of how i resolve this..then talk with my beloved mum..then yah..everything will b fine..NO wORries MaTe~!

*AciTz KiNgKi0w* turned back time on 7:31 PM

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The Original Lost raver

Alone, make my entrance to ****..chiLL at *******'s bar..Double pour of bourbon coke..Lychee Mariachi & Vodka Lime smooth down mY throaT..open a conversation with tiz Israel girl..to kiLL the time away waitiNg for my MateZ..A bottle of Baron with a spite of redbUll..Arrived finally,they bottled up some more of the locally brewed Tiger..I was feeling Noice..ready to hit the dance floor..Then that was the moment..I shulden't have accept it..but regretfully I did..got fifteen..i bite..the bitterness was too much and i puked some..soBered sunddenly..so in the chase for satisfaction..i asked for another fifteen..with a touch of our trademark of brotherhood..we make our way to **** confident for a great nite..the tribal music was pumping..my blood was rushing..heartbeat accelerating..it didn't take long..It was good..too good..I know something is amist..I was so thirsty..I head to get some drinks..the more i drink..the more thirstier i got..I need some air..i head out..vision dimmed and doubled..i was trippin..my eyes were playing tricks on me..it didn't stop rising..In another 5..i was experiencing the climax..My eyes..its scary..i know i can't risk hanging around there any longer..i can't even walk straight..i was alone..confused, I head for the cab..head home..I shut my eyes in the cab..hoping everything will b fine and it will go down..But no..I was still in my trip..the cab seemed to b travelling so fast..i felt stuck to the seat..but when i open my eyes..it was slow..seemed like 80..i closed back my eyes..streets light are hurting my eyes..i try to control it..but instead..it control me..I was Lost..Tiz was not what i planned..Reached my place..it was stil early..ard 2.30am..i can't walk straight..i can't think straight..even lighting a cigarette seemed so hard..heartbeat was racing..i feel as if it could stop anytime..my head was spinning inside..tiz was wrong..tiz is overdosed..i was frozen..can't move..i just can shut my eyes..i needn't to be home..but my movement was like the matrix..it's true..my movement was unnaturally slow and suddenly fast..the momentum was crazy..i was going bonkers..i light my cigarette..I smoked 5 puffs and it was left with fliter..my mind was slow..i shut my eyes for a while..when i opened..its 4 am...I make my way to my door..i have to b strong..i was thirsty..i was exhausted..It was a mistake..I wasn't the person I used to be..I wasn't the raver I was..I was a few more pills to being dead..

I wear my sunglasses at night so i can so i can watch you even breathe your story, lies...I wear my sunglasses at night so i can so i can keep track of vision in my eyes..don't massacarate with the guys in shades oh no..don't massacarate with the guys in shades oh no..don't massacarate with the guys in shades oh no......

Sorry Baby
Peace Out~

*AciTz KiNgKi0w* turned back time on 6:52 PM

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Hey peepoLes~!

Apologies for my disappearance..I just went off to seek some peace in this hectic life..Things are currently ain't that bright for me..Somehow..I feel tired,exhausted of my Life..I ain't talking bout suicide..but bout tiz feeling inside..i feel so dead..Well some events really make it worse and I feel more saddened..firstly..Remember the entreprenuership camp thingy I was talking about? Yeah..I went and it is a fucking lame one..and while I was there..I got news that my grandfather passed away..on the 25th of May 2004..and like my grandmother's passing..i was overseas..but tiz time..I was just across the border and my aunt & uncle picked me up ard 3 a.m . The moment I reached my grandfather's place...I saw all the sore face due to the tears shed..I washed up and sit bside my late grandfather and offer him some prayers..I was holding back my tears..I stayed up all the while till the burial..when I kissed the cheeks and forehead of my late grandfather for the last time..he got this glow on him..he feel so cool..Though..my tears were shed later..I realise that's how I will b when my time comes..well..may god bless his soul..Goodbye for now..

Then my results..haIzzz..It's my worst yet performance..i never failed two subjects before..LoL..yeah..and I wasn't that surprise only disappointed at myself. I don't know y...but I am sick & tired of school..I need a break..a long break to replenish myself..yeah..and time table out..and i gotta squeeze 2 more subjects in..damnn..It really gives me headaches even before school reopens..and yeah..I miss the fullmoon party..due to some shitz in school..

It's been 6 beautiful months spending my life with a wonderful girl whom I Lurve...yeah..she is patient with me..tru my crazy mood swings..she been there with me..comforting me with her soft touch & soothing words..Baby..I cherish everytime I get to see u smile..to hear u laugh..to feel the warmth of your hug and feel the magical feeling when we kiss..Nothing can buy that..u are my priceless gift from heaven..and if anything is to take you away from me..I will be so lost without u..sunshine..u are my life..there is no one in this world who can love me like u do...babY,we had our fun and we make mistakes..and along that road we learn to give and take..u gave me even more than i could ever dream of and u make loving u so easy for me...Sweetheart..with u by my side..never will i feel so loved..u r my angel..love ya lotz magarita..

*AciTz KiNgKi0w* turned back time on 5:08 AM

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