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Life 0f A Guy Ppl LOve By The Name Acitz... ^` *Acitz* feeling ^` *Original Since April 23rd 1986* ^` *Loves The Sunset & Sunrise* ^` *Loves His Family, His Sunshine and His Friends* ^` *In Trance We love*
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Soundcheck : Always Somewhere by Scorpions It's the fasting month and in this holy month, i'm abit different in my mood, my acts and my desires, in a good way. Praise Allah. I will have to force myself to wake up in the afternoon one of this days, I wanna go take some porridge at the Mosque for my grandfather. It's sometimes sad to see your beloved ones suffering. Even tho, from my birth, his vision of me was nothing more of a blurry image, his love and advises have guided me well and always, a good sense of humour. Once he said during Aidilfitri, "Rasyid...susah ah atuk mata tak nampak, badan sengal-sengal....kalau dapat lagi 2-3 ramahdan, shukur allhamduhlilah"...and upon hearing that, my heart sink and all I can do was say a heartfelt prayer to God to grant him his wishes. And I replied "Insya-Allah atuk. Insya-Allah." .It makes me think, his readiness to face death, it leaves me thinking. I haven't get much chance to pay the grandparent's a visit, dad's overseas and everyone's busy and that day I went and got to see my grandfather, he's getting weaker due to old age, however just sitting and looking at him brings me peace, and I sat by him and he asked me, "Siape ni? Rasyid tak datang eh?" and when I say it's me, his happiness and his smile was one that touched me so deep. Hit me so deep down there...I had to braced myself to prevent tears from rolling down. I felt so blessed, and at the same time sad, at the thought, when he's gone. If giving one of my eye will make him see again, I swear I will, for when I talk to him, I feel his utmost desire to see his children all grown up and to see my grandmother and all his grandchildren. Still, his faith and his spirit is one I've learnt to follow. If there's such thing as miracles...I pray for that one final moment, when everyone, is there to see him, he'll be granted perfect sight which was taken away from him for more than 40+ years, for him to have a final look at us. I know it will mean alot to him. It will mean alot to me. So, those with sight, cherish it. Sometimes I feel like I'm writing a letter to God. Almost all my prayers have been answered. So God is listening somewhere. Whether it be writing or saying a prayer, I think it's our heart that matter. God bless . . Soundcheck : Holding On to Nothing by Agnelli & Nelson World Cup 2006 was pretty much a good tournament, except was kinda disappointed by Brazil's performance as with the talents they have this time round, I was expecting Brazil to play more beautifully and score more goals. Alot of the players in my era will not be there to play in the next World Cup. Some of the great names will be Ronaldo(who's now getting fat) , Beckham(Commercial Star rather than a footballer), Roberto Carlos(The classic bannana goal in World Cup 98), Oliver Khan & Buffon ( THE Goalkeepers), Zidane ( Who ends his World Cup with a Head to the Chest Butt to Materazzi in the Finals) and alot of the players I was inspired by and grew up watching. Au revoir !! The finals...Italy won on penalties. 5-3. " Ole...Ole....Oleeeeeee yeeea Olleee....Celebrate the game ! the game....." I don't mean to hurt people...but sometimes when u get hurt, getting even is the perfect remedy. No feeling of guilt, no remorse just satisfaction. Sometimes people need to feel what they make others felt. "Standing in the rain...Twisted and Insane....We're holding on to nothing..........." A passing of a friend....Shahril (Boboy)....Memories will always be remembered....Those times when you lived will still live on in our hearts....Rest in peace brother...God bless. "Thinking of the day...when u went away...what a life to take...what a bond to break...i'll be missing u..." I've picked up a new hobby.......Gambling....lol. Yeah, nothing major, just Toto and the SG Sweep. I have been having dreams of winning money, like 600k and 200k...thus, as most of my dreams comes true...why not? lol. I've major plans if I really do win some big money. God bless and hope one day, I'll strike big, like 2 million....hahaha...or anything like in my dream....gosh, it will help me alot and i'll help my family with some financial issues and those friends and people in need. School's ending soon and I hope i'll pass as i'm so tired of school. It's about time i serve my NS and go out there and start earning my millions...I pray that i'll pass...I don't ask for excellence, just to pass as I know, with my efforts and interest, what to expect. With school out of the way soon, the only other matter troubling me every day is my court case. I just can't wait for the day it will just end. I'm so tired of enduring it's mental torment. It's like you're just hanging on and the odds of you falling so deep down is so far greater than you being pulled back up...but still, you're still hanging with a glimpse of hope....that the Heavens are on your side. I've been coughing so bad that I feel my lungs pounding so hard against my chest with each cough. I guess...I will start to cut down on those death sticks that have been my friends for 6 years. They are really making me ill. And those pills and alcohol that are my quick escapes from troubles, heartaches and reality...it's time we go our separate ways soon. All Good times have to come to an end. . Soundcheck : Tunggu Aku di Jakarta By Sheila On 7 Hey people ! When was the last time i got into my blogger? last year? lol...honestly, i forgotten my password. Some trial and error, and taaddaa...guess who's back ??? Sleepless nights. I fucked up my body clock. I wake at 6pm and I sleep at 6am. Well done Acitz. You have achieved living the noctunal life of a Vampyre like you always wanted to be...only that you are still very much human. Let's jot down a quick rewind......whiiioiiinnnnnnnzzzzzzxxcxcxcxcxxxxskrraaakkk "Alamak, rosak sikit ah cassette ni, da ade mushroom rupenye...kwakwakwa"...whiioooiiinnzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......*press play*............................... I passed my driving license on 25th July** My FYP is a pain the arse ** Got my Mitsubishi Lancer on 12th October 2005** Got into my first road accident on 20th Oct...10.05pm...looks bad...what a way to start off...I was damn traumatised...I took it as an expensive lesson** I drove to KL and back...despite the recent accident, I can't thank my family more for the support and still believing in me...restoring my confidence**And there's all the birthdays forgetting not my sweetheart's 19th and all my great friends. ** KL trip with my Sunshine, Fazli, Ahmad, Hajar, Pi, Leena...wondering where's Farah? There's some complications in a dramatic beginning...well, in all, it was a good time, I loved the place we stayed** ZOUK OUT !!! ** NYE @ Pipi's crib...the party was dope ** Shahril aka boboy, another friend fighting a what seems a losing battle against cancer...it was painful to see him suffer, all the pain in his face...the feeling so hopeless...yet it's reality...May the Almighty hear my prayers and have mercy on your soul...I've pray for a better day for you, with love...** My cousin got married...kinda funny, I still rmbr him as the crazy guy who would do all kinda stupid things together...and now, a father and all different. ** My ex gf is now married and now have a baby boy...I still trying to get the picture up in my head. ** Paul Van Dyke was an upset ** Tiesto at MOS was a good night ** I'm getting hooked on a good cup of Starbuck's Caramel Frappucino... ** Plenty of parties...a little bit too much sometimes I think...lol. ** ..............*forward*...........** My 20th birthday .... Thanks to everyone who makes it special...you know who you are...Special thanks to my Sunshine and yeah, Rod...lol. ** Our 29th month and you're ever still so lovely... ** .......*pause*.......** Well, I think my life couldn't get any better...Sometimes I just feel so thankful to the Almighty, Allah...I don't know how to put all my gradtitude to God. Well, i know i'm quite a sinner in this world...but in my heart, I'm my own saint...and i pray in my own world every time I feel this feeling, a feeling of blessed...I pray for people i know, i love, i care, i remember, i pity, and lastly for myself....and I believe God is listening as my prayers are answered....God is great. "Exchange your troubles for some love....wherever you are" The future is full of surprises in this kaleidoscope of chaos....may it be pleasant surprises....Lots of love. Anyway, if u got a part time job to offer....do look for me...I want one. Cheers ! Peace be upon you."I'm longing for the sun......here we come......to the island without name" . Soundcheck : Promises by The Cranberries How have it been lads..? lol. How time passes by so fast that if you don't spent a moment to look back, you might missed it. Love is something unpredictable. 19 mths. For me...it's really something, i feel blessed. Playboy tamed. I want to be a better person. I wished she really see something in me...cos I see lots of things in her."I had a match...but she had a lighter...I had a flame...but she had a fire." Birthdays everywhere...I forgotten some. Apologies. Well, for those where I was there..it was great. That time at on Dboy's birthday was a fantastic one. Nice to feel the rush of adrealin once again. I wore her out after that. LoL. "Oulala papayaya" Yeah..i won't forget the time she drank too much and simply get wasted..lol..that's the worst state I ever see her in. Well, I spent most of my high with her outside the club. You really mean alot to me, sunshine. So don't apologies...it's ok...everyone have their fucked up times. You were there by me when I was hanging on for my life. I really overdone it that time. Memory of it haunts me. "All the promises we made...Promises we made...All the meaningless and empty words I broke" Now Fazli's driving...a mazda 3...And Shahril will soon be getting his Vios...I am happy for both of them...just wondering when will it be my turn to be happy for myself..my test is coming, well to be honest...I am more preoccupied with my driving test then my academic tests..lol..well, can u just see the interest in there. I hope i make it this 1st time...I just can't wait much longer...pls god. I'll be so grateful....and yeah, help Ahmad too...I think he is way behind...Thank you. " Flying at the speed of sound...I'll show you how it all began..." Remember the times when town was still our playground. Searching for vintage sneaks & cool stuffs. We seek thrills in any form. Sex, drugs , alcohol..Teenage pyrexes, illegally drinking alcohol and smoking cigarrettes. We were mere 14 yrs olds. Getting into clubs and mixing with all kind of fucked up 'matured' people. School is where we play. Everyday a new day of fun and laughter. Getting into fights is a way of getting recognised. How times changes how things are done...places...people...if I look back , I might laugh, I might regret....but whatever I did back there...This is who I am. And I got god to thank for showing me the ups & downs of life. Without it...Life is meaningless. The journey continues.......... "destak !destak !destak !destak ! destak! destak! .........." . Soundcheck : We Are The Champions by Queen Liverpool is a mighty team with great potential which needs a few more quality signings and a tatically wise manager to excel. And today Liverpool displayed their class. No one would expect any team especially in a Champions League Finals to come back from 3 goals down and win the game in a thrilling penalty kick. But Liverpool shows a new meaning to a miracle. A game full of shots, chances, misses...a game full of Hope. It was a great game...One that will go down history lane and be remembered for years to come. And it's not those rich clubs like Man Utd, Chelsea, Real Madrid, Barcelona or AC Milan that lifted the Champions Trophy tonight. No...Tonight's Liverpool's night...The Mighty Reds, The pride of Merseyside...Liverpool the Champion Of Europe of 2005. You will never walk alone. Hail Rafael Benitez ! Hail Steven Gerrard! Hail Carragher ! Hail Dudek ! Hail Luis Garcia ! Hail Hypia ! Hail Riise ! Hail Xabi Alonso ! Hail Smicer ! Hail Didier Hamann ! Hail Kewell ! Hail Traore ! Hail Cisse ! Hail Baros ! Cheers ! "No time for Losers 'cos we are the Champions of the World" . Beautiful stranger....u make my day when I am so down. Beautiful stranger, u make me feel i know u for thousands of years. U make me smile with ur sincerity. Ur smile is heavenly and your looks bring about a new meaning to everything. I feel as if i could talk anything to u...if only she understands me like u do. I thank u for giving me hope, for pushing me on to what i believe. Now god have really show me that age is merely a number...and u must be the angel god sent to me. "Happiness Keeps u sweet, Trials Make u strong, Sorrows Keep u Human, Failure Keeps u Humble, Success Keeps u glowing & God Keeps u going." ... Thank you, u lift a heavy burden off my shoulders ... which u never will know. Souncheck : Butterflies & Hurricanes by Muse Anger. Release. Lies are very hurtful don't u understand...Yeah, fuck am I not OK...and why you kept doing it to me...it sucks being a good guy when bart simpson , cheesecake boy 'Nik' and etc are the ones who gets treated so nicely. At least if u want it to be like this...be fair...I can stop giving so much attention to this relationship. I am being fucking patient and you make me look like a fool. Never take my patience for granted .Stop asking me and ask yourself for a change...what is causing this mess . Do something about it .I felt a hatred so much at that moment that an angry, old self of mine was just waiting to make an appearance...and it's growing stronger each day...are u testing me ? Don't . You may think u can get away with the lies...but u are so wrong. It will take a few more...trust me...and the table's will be turning and don't ever think of sharing the blame. I am sick of being treated like this. And to ur sideline boys...u trashers better pray hard that I don't get back to where I was...I hate to be threatened, I hate being lied to and most of all...don't EVER cross my line . Next time I won't be patient. I will have my waited revenge. "Your number has been called.....fights and battles have begun......revenge will surely come..... your hard times are ahead " . Soundcheck : Mr. Brightside by The Killers 3 hours , We confessed & talked things through...all that causing the missing piece in our relationship...It was an emotional talk for me...I really poured my heart fillings and if she still don't understand me...I don't know how to put myself to her...As I look into her eye..I found a thousand reasons why, that she is the most beautiful thing that happened ever to me and all others stand no where near to where she is in my heart..I now knew that she was the reason I felt so alive..Now things are going the other way round for both of us. She demands much freedom and blamed me for being too commited . If it's revenge...I don't blame her...I once treated her like that. But I need time to learnt & realised, and I grew to where I am now. I love her, I am commited and if god allows...I will want to be with her for the rest of my life...well, she's not so sure about that . It hurts but it's her feelings...If I could ask your opinion..Even if u are taking a step at a time...Do u in a relationship, with a someone u love, at least have a Hope of being together for the rest of your life...and if got the life...get married one day ? That's what I Hope for in my relationship...and she thinks it's wrong for me to hope like that...it's not like i am a freak who even talks abt marriage and etc...I am just being commited...pls don't blame her...it's all individual. But , I still awaits some answers...well, disappointingly, she needs to think...... "It started out with a kiss...How did it end up like this? It was only a kiss " Soundcheck : Tattva by Kula Shaker ...........Life isn't so great when u are down, bored, broken, hurt, and ignored. Life is unfair whether i like it or not but for my case now...I don't. Hoping to win trusts tru those actions are bold but hurtful...I will try to overcome that, in hope things will change for the better..I Hope. I feel second best to the treatment I received. I don't blame anyone, it's just life. Sometimes i wonder when was the last time..I was truly happy..just pure happiness..not stimulated by alchohol or drugs . And i still am wondering...do smiling implies that i am happy ? do laughing shows that i am happy ? The feeling seems to have desert me...when, i still unsure. "I'm on fire I'm rotting to the core..I'm eating all your kings and queens..All your sex and diamonds.."  Take a guess.... I dreamt of a day when a friend who makes my world a whole different place from where I am right now come and save me in this dark hour of mine......someone who sincerely will be a friend, not for the fame, money, pity, attention...not for anything...as days passes by...I feel closer to meeting that friend..but still not yet...not yet. "Like the flower and the sand of summer...Like the sun and the shine..well, the truth comes in many disguises." . |
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